Icon Cafe

It has been a year since I got really really hurt, I thought I'd never be okay. But hey, here I am still alive and kicking...

I had a very busy week. This afternoon, I went to Robinson's Lipa to buy some stuff that I need to bring to my new place in Makati (yups I finally found a place in Makati that suits my needs). Then, I passed by "Icon Cafe" and memories keep rushing back. It has been a year since I last eat there.

The first time I ordered their infamous "Tuna Melt Meal with brewed Batangas coffee" I was feeling so happy for some personal reasons. Then every time I go to Robinson's, I always eat there with the same feeling.

Then during the time that I am feeling so confused, I still eat the same meal at that same cafe.

Then last year, when I was feeling so hurt and helpless, I keep ordering the same meal and I keep eating at the same spot (window seat with a mirror at the left side). I don't know why I always choose that spot every time I eat there. Maybe because, it is where I could see my face in the mirror and my expression too. I can openly see my eyes that mirror my emotions >> from happiness to confusion to total pain and then to numbness.

Then today, I returned to the place... Something has changed in me but the place is still the same. I still choose the same old spot and I still ordered the same old meal. But when I see myself in the mirror, I saw a big change. My eyes are no longer a reflection of broken glasses. I am not completely happy but I could say that I had moved on.

I felt like there is a connection between Icon Cafe and I, the cafe that sees the seasonal and staged emotions of mine. And I felt so relieved for reasons I couldn't quite explain. I feel so light nowadays.

Time heals everything. It is true that there is no such thing as forgetting but there is only acceptance... I'll keep moving on... Who knows, maybe next time I would be eating a different meal at Icon Cafe already :)

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Just want some more minutes to talk... but I cannot have it like I used to...