it is so damn painful

... more painful it is by knowing that the one causing you pain doesn't care about
... more painful it is by knowing that the one causing you pain is doing things to cause you more pain
... more painful it is by realizing that despite all your efforts to show how much you love the person, everything is taken for granted
... more painful it is by pretending that everything is alright and that you are happy with what is happening
... more painful it is when you already expected something in return and in the end all is in vain

so painful that you can no longer cry

lost for words

I just woke up this morning having this feeling that I need to write down whatever feelings I have. So, I finally decided to start my blogspot (parang diary lang naman). But then, now that I have the chance, I cannot seem to put everything into words. Parang na-stuck na lahat sa puso ko yung mga nararamdaman ko, seems like my heart already locked itself to spare me from more pain. I hope this will pass...